I'm telling you, the evil in me has emerged. It's like I have this whole other being hidden deep down inside me, a being whose moods are usually dark and stormy and enjoys thinking up ways to make things miserable for others just for the heck of it.
Someone who drives really slow on the roads to annoy the hell out of the person behind her and when she sees the person getting annoyed and trying to overtake her, she speeds up and looks at the rearview mirror, smirking her evil smirk as the other person looks super pissed off.
Someone who thinks in her head "What an idiot you are" when someone is trying to be jovial and nice before just giving that person a frosty look and walks off when the person is in mid-sentence.
Someone who just doesn't care about what other people think or want or need, just coz she doesn't feel like doing anything nice. In fact, she thinks "Why should I be nice? Being nice is seriously overrated".
Does that someone sound familiar to you?
Do you have someone like that inside you?
Because someone like that exists inside me.
She lives inside me, but rarely makes her appearance. Coz I somehow manage to bury her deep inside the depths of me. But I know she's there. And sometimes, when I'm tired of keeping her in, she comes out. And creates havoc everywhere.
And you know what? I enjoy having her around when she has her little bits of freedom. Because honestly, being nice is tiring. Being nice is a pain. And being nice never gets you anywhere. All it brings you is a whole lot more problems and you're stuck in the middle having to sort through the emotional laundry and whatnot belonging to other people. And nobody sees that you have a whole pile of dirty laundry behind you yourself. Because you're expected to clean their loads first.
Why?
Because you're nice, that's why.
GAH...
So the evil me has come out. And I think she's going to want to have more fun while she's out before the NICE (GAG) me pushes her back in.
And I think this time, I am going to let her have a longer holiday.
It's summer vacation.
Go wild.
1 comment:
It's easier to be mean sometimes. But mine only comes out once every week.. She comes out more often now. I'm not the verbal type.. I wont know that she's there until someone pointed it out that I'm glaring or being nasty to someone. Hope that it's just us... being bitchy
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