Finding my way back into love

"All I wanna do is find my way back into love.." -Music and Lyrics-

Ahh.. I just love Music and Lyrics.. It's witty, charming, heart wrenching and sickeningly sweet, the perfect combination for every romance loving sucker out there. I was watching this with my girlfriends a while back and we just fell in love with the whole package. The actors were great, the lines fantastic, and the cheesy songs were so lovable!! *gush*

I want to find my way back into love as well.. During my puppy love days, I remember all I had to think about was, why didn't he call me? Did he pass my way on his way to class? Are we meeting for lunch later? Trivial now, but they were so important then. My day wouldn't be complete without a nod from him, a phone call, a letter. My sweet, cheesy days.. *sigh*

Later experiences allowed me to understand that not every relationship is sweet and cheesy. As I grew older, my outlook changed. Things always start out right, but end up wrong. It was like we were once two people walking down the same street before turning towards different directions. We yelled and tried to get each other's attention, trying to bring us back to the same street, but eventually we walked on too far to hear each other and just.. walked on. And after a while, I got tired of trying to keep walking down the same paths at the same pace with one person, and decided to just walk my own path at my own pace. Right decision? I don't know.

Fast forward to today.. I am even more disillusioned with the guys around me. Is it just me or do they seem to all be oddly moulded? It's like they may have 10 merits, but then their 100 demerits just jump out at me to the point that I just want to run far away. And guys now are becoming so stalker like, they are just so persistent even when you have indicated that you're just plain NOT INTERESTED. I seriously don't know how to spell it any clearer than that, maybe all the guys nowadays read from different books or learn their words from other dictionaries. Dictionaries printed in Krypton or something. Bah.

However, the clocks are ticking, my friends and family are reminding me of what I lack. And somehow, I do want to find my way back into love. But I don't know how to anymore. There is no such thing as a perfect man anymore. Perfection lies in your imagination, and we all know that there's no way in hell you're ever going to find a man that fits in with your every want. But that doesn't mean that I have to settle for goblins and trolls right? *sigh*

I seriously wish I could mail order from my collection.. Aiii...