Maum i appho...

There are certain times when I feel this way. Not many people are aware of the fact that I am capable of this emotion. Of course, when someone projects herself to be bubbly, happy and carefree all the time, people would tend to believe that projected image. Who would be so free as to delve into her inner thoughts and feelings? Why complicate life right?

Right.

But I do feel this way. More so when certain things happen around me. The past is the past they say, and we should let sleeping dogs lie. I wish I could tell everyone that. And everyone would be happy. But sad to say, this isn't the case. There are some things in this world that you just cannot forget. And it's usually these things that come back to haunt you, no matter how hard you try.

Can one really make a difference if one tries hard enough? Sometimes I feel like one does want to change. From the bottom of one's heart. But trying one's best is tiring. And after a while, you just stop trying because it gets to hard. It's easier to just lash out and remain the way you were because changing for the better is just so damned difficult. So why bother?

And it's times like this that nae maum i appho.

Nomu nomu apphasso, naega michyon go gattae.

Itjoboru shippeun de, motthaesso.

Ttona kago shippeun de, motthaesso..

Gurom, nan ottohkhae?

Na hante towajyo.. Chaebal.. Towajyo...