The evil me has emerged

Current mood: BLACK, BLACK, BLACK

I'm telling you, the evil in me has emerged. It's like I have this whole other being hidden deep down inside me, a being whose moods are usually dark and stormy and enjoys thinking up ways to make things miserable for others just for the heck of it.

Someone who drives really slow on the roads to annoy the hell out of the person behind her and when she sees the person getting annoyed and trying to overtake her, she speeds up and looks at the rearview mirror, smirking her evil smirk as the other person looks super pissed off.

Someone who thinks in her head "What an idiot you are" when someone is trying to be jovial and nice before just giving that person a frosty look and walks off when the person is in mid-sentence.

Someone who just doesn't care about what other people think or want or need, just coz she doesn't feel like doing anything nice. In fact, she thinks "Why should I be nice? Being nice is seriously overrated".

Does that someone sound familiar to you?

Do you have someone like that inside you?

Because someone like that exists inside me.

She lives inside me, but rarely makes her appearance. Coz I somehow manage to bury her deep inside the depths of me. But I know she's there. And sometimes, when I'm tired of keeping her in, she comes out. And creates havoc everywhere.

And you know what? I enjoy having her around when she has her little bits of freedom. Because honestly, being nice is tiring. Being nice is a pain. And being nice never gets you anywhere. All it brings you is a whole lot more problems and you're stuck in the middle having to sort through the emotional laundry and whatnot belonging to other people. And nobody sees that you have a whole pile of dirty laundry behind you yourself. Because you're expected to clean their loads first.

Why?

Because you're nice, that's why.

GAH...

So the evil me has come out. And I think she's going to want to have more fun while she's out before the NICE (GAG) me pushes her back in.

And I think this time, I am going to let her have a longer holiday.

It's summer vacation.

Go wild.

One week

That's how long it takes for me to finally look more like me instead of a half chipmunk.



That's how long it takes for me to be able to chew larger chunks of food.



That's how long it takes for my cheek and jaw to not ache that much anymore.



That's how long it takes for me to be able to sleep properly without jerking awake from the pain.



That's how long it takes...



How am I going to survive this ordeal another time next month???



HOW????

Happy Birthday K!!!!!!!!!!

Happy birthday dearest K!!!!!!!!! You finally turn another year older, muahahaha!!! Ajumma!!!!!

MUAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!

I finally decided to come out of my hiding spot (my face is still rather swollen, although the swelling has reduced quite considerably) and have dinner with the birthday girl and L tonight! We had a really satisfying and happy dinner at one of our fave spots, right opposite where R used to stay. Sigh... miss R loads, dinner would have been so much more fun with her around. And J too... The complete crowd...

But, oh well!! The three musketeers(? I think...) are still together and creating havoc wherever we go!!!

L and I went to get K's present first before dinner and K was held up elsewhere, so we had dinner REALLY, REALLY late. Haha, pretty normal for us really! We were deciding where to go to pass her her present and we just decided to come to my place. Saves a lot of time and it doesn't smell of ciggies unlike our usual default choice.

Anyways, we had a session of girl talk before we finally gave her her present. Imagine K's face when she was presented with...

TADA!!!

0.99 cents yoghurt which was gonna expire tomorrow and a lemon candy stick which was supposed to be a candle...

PRICELESS!!

It was our Kodak moment, our MasterCard moment!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!

We made her finish the yoghurt there and then, and she did. Reluctantly. Glaring at us all the while and saying, I quote, "My two hopeless friends..."

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We prolonged her torture a little longer before finally giving her her real gift. A textbook and a journal that she had been eyeing for the longest of times.

Needless to say she perked up immediately and was beaming her head off!

Our dear, adorable, sweet K! So lovable!!!

We taped her every moment, so you girls should be able to watch it firsthand soon. L has it, she should be uploading it somewhere, gotta ask her...

Anyways, Happy Birthday K! I hope you had a great and most importantly, a super memorable one!!

Saranghae!!!!!!!!!

Chipmunk

I look like half a chipmunk. I can barely eat properly and anything that requires chewing takes forever. I take like a whole minute to eat a grape, for crying out loud...

And I have to extract the left wisdom tooth next month...

God, give me strength. I don't think I can endure another session of numbing, feeling the pressure and knowing that they are trying to uproot your tooth, seeing lots of bloody gauze, hearing the tooth breaking and then the pain that comes with the whole package once the anaesthesia has worn off..

I wanna run away now....

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Countdown...

... to pain....

My appointment with the dentist is tomorrow...

And I will be subjected to much pain....

Tick tock... Tick tock.... Tick tock....

The lines

Time is ticking, ti time is ticking, ticking...

from Epik High's "One" ...

is apt in my situation....

I really wish I could freeze time for now!!!!! I don't want to go through pain!!! Pain!!! Pain!!!

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Weekend's here

It's Saturday!! I've had a busy week, and I am dreading next week... Gonna get my wisdom teeth pulled out on Tuesday.. I sense pain... A lot of pain..

HELP!!!

Anyways, in view of the fact that I won't be able to eat much next week, I've been really making up for it this week. I've been cooking all the things that I love eating as well as buying whatever I fancy!

Kimchi chigae for dinner with the yummiest ban chans ever, koom namul and japchae!! Then K and I went out for a while for dessert and snacks!

Which brings me to sigh.... R has been gone a week. She's good and healthy... Well maybe not so healthy. She has chicken pox! Hahahahaha!! I was laughing my head off when I heard!

Hahahaha!!!

I know I'm mean... Don't worry R, you can start laughing at me on Tues. I promise.

I'll be bawling at home from all the pain!!!

That is if I'm conscious. I might pass out from the unbearable pain...

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Does everyone...

... really experience the same things as you? If that's really the case, then life is kinda sad. You get this strange feeling that you're pretty much everyone else on the street. Nothing special, just that you look different, come from a different background...

I think that almost everyone I know who's about the same age as me is going through the exact same things that I'm going through. Maybe slightly different here and there, but when you really think about it, it's basically the same.

For example, I was chatting online with a friend whom I haven't seen in years and we were just discussing the latest updates in our lives and found out that we've been leading similar lives. We even went to Bali together around the same time, just that she was there a couple of days earlier than me and I left a couple of days later. And we both didn't know that we were there.

How strange is that? Coincidence? Maybe...

Maybe it's the fates of those born in the same year (ddong gab)...

I don't really know what's up with me now, I've been feeling rather blue of late. And I have no explanation as to why I am feeling this way. And I can relate to how Tae Joo felt in Que Sera Sera when he said this:

"I feel suffocated. It's like someone is tightening their hands around my neck."

Me being dramatic?

Maybe...

But almost everyone I know feels the same way. Like we're all trapped in our own webs and there's no way out.

Yet...

I need to stop being so moody. It's bad for my health.

Someone cheer me up!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mommy!!!!!!!!!! 엄마!!!!!!!!!!

Happy mommy's day!!!!!!

I didn't forget, I called my mom up this morning to wish her a happy mommy's day! I am the perfect daughter, I know, you don't have to tell me!!

I can so hear my sis gagging right now... :/....

Anyways, my mom was having breakfast with her mom when I called her, and she sounded really pleased that I called. Before she started talking about the current apple of her eye, our little Mandu...

Aiii...

Grandmothers will always be grandmothers first before mommies I guess...

Haha, mom can use the new phone we got her now, I think she finally figured it out! Haha! Now she knows how to answer calls, I'll just have to wait for her to be able to send messages. Shouldn't take too long, I have faith in you mom! You should be able to send messages by next month!

Muahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!

I hope you had a great day mom! Miss you lots and love you!!!!!!

이세상에서 제일 예쁘은 우리엄마 예계...

엄마!!!!!!!!!!


사랑해!!!!!!!!!!


엄마는...


꼭 겅간하고, 행복하고...

매일,매일

엄마 의 읏음은 모습을 보면,

행복해요...

고마워 엄마!!!!

나 이렇게 사랑한다고

나도, 엄마 가 많이 사랑해!!!!!

Board games with R

Amateur Scrabblers!!

Sigh.....





R left for her big, new, rather daunting experience in life today. I'm proud of her, she's taken the first step towards realising her dreams. For being brave enough and so determined to live life the way she wants to, I applaud her.





You go girl!!! Woohoo!!





K and I went to send her off today, we spent a couple of hours hanging out at the coffee shop, drinking our coffees, chatting and playing board games. It was good just doing that. It's always been what we loved doing and how we've always spent our time together.





Hanging out, chatting and laughing while drinking coffee.





With R not around, K and I are going to be so lonely. L the useless bum had better come out more often!!!





Sigh... miss R already...





Come back soon R! And don't forget our presents!!!!!!!!





Muahahahaha!!!!





Saranghae R!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday!!!!!!!

My blog's officially one year old today!!

WOOHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I honestly never expected that I would have lasted this long just writing here. All my other blogs have kinda faded away into the background, but this little one here's still going on strong!

It's nice having a space to yourself. Express your feelings, commemorate events, discuss things with the big wide web (a.k.a. yourself most of the time). It's nice. It's a sane-ifying factor for me.

Happy 1st birthday blog!!!

May we have many more to come!!!!!!!!!!!

화분 by 러브홀릭

One of my fave songs by Loveholic. And Alex sang it to Shin Ae just before he told her that he was leaving the show... Sad moment... And the lyrics are super meaningful... But the fact that she brought out a potted plant he prepared for her just after he sang it to her makes me feel like the show really is scripted. Then again, when is TV never ever scripted anyways??

Just wanted to share the lyrics with you all... I wonder if I can attach the mp3 here... Hmmm...

화분 by 러브홀릭

멀리서 멀리서 멀리서 그대가 오네요
이 떨리는 마음을 어떻게 말해야 하나요

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 빼앗고
나을 수 없는 병을 내게 주었죠
화분이 될래요 나는 늘 기도하죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

멀리도 멀리도 멀리도 그대가 가네요.
떨어지는 눈물을 어떻게 달래야 하나요

그댄 처음부터 나의 마음을 가졌고
나을 수 없는 병을 앓게 한거죠
화분이 되고픈 나는 늘 기도하죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대의 얼굴 한없이 볼 수 있겠죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 바라 볼테죠

난 그대 작은 창가에 화분이 될께요
아무 말 못해도 바랄 수 없어도
가끔 그대의 미소와 손길을 받으며
잠든 그대 얼굴 한없이 바라 볼테죠

Aiiiii.... I just love this song...

우리 결혼했어요... Second thoughts...

The hosts

I think my fave couple in '우리 결혼했어요' is now Hyung Don and Saori. I know I was negative about them initially (and who wouldn't be, especially in the Chuseok special they did?) but I decided to give them a chance this time, instead of just skipping their parts like I usually do.

The four main couples- altho Shin Ae-Alex are gonna be replaced soon. Seemingly Hwang Bo-Hyung Joon (from SS501)

And now I love them!! They are so funny! Definitely not the most romantic couple in the world, but realistic though. And cute!! Hyung Don is sooooo similar to so many older men out there who just seem to not want to make the effort to keep the romance alive in the relationship.

I should know, that category kinda fits most of the men in my extended family. It's like they all read from the same manual or something.

But I digress.

Watching Hyung Don and Saori just sent me into fits of laughter!! I tell you, it's like watching Gag Concert! Full of laughter!

Hyung Don trying to be cutesy Andy style for Saori!!!

Andy and Solbi are still the cutesy, romantic, new coupley couple but I think I prefer Hyung Don and Saori now. I don't know why, but Andy-Solbi are starting to seem more scripted to me now. It's just not so natural anymore, and it seems rather old... they've been over emphasising on the adorable, playful quarrelsome-ness that one usually finds in new couples (at least the ones that I've seen), so much so that it seems rather fake now...

See what I mean? Too much of a good thing is rather... cloying...

Andy-Solbi seem more like a fantasy whereas Hyung Don-Saori are more human-like. And funny!!!

Especially the picnic!! The polaroid that Hyung Don took in his attempt to be the dream couple Alex-Shin Ae! It looked like something from a horror movie!! So funny!!!!!!!!! And the way he keeps on trying to beat Alex in everything and the little challenges he puts forth!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Pics credits: Soompi Forums)

Boring Sunday

It's been a boring, lazy and slow Sunday. Which I suppose is good coz I get to just relax and do whatever I want...

But then why do I feel even more tired??

Strange...

My cousin is watching Heroes season one and is bugging me at the side asking for spoilers. Silly boy, why bother watching it if you can't contain your curiousity?

Don't ask me, I'm not gonna tell you! Watch it yourself kid!

Don't feel like eating anything, I just want my coffee...

Dream partner requirement number 1: Someone to buy me coffee whenever I want one...

Movies and food

The girls and I had a long awaited outing together yesterday. It's been ages since we all met up, given the fact that a certain someone is always so busy!! Not accusing you, L, but it's true!!!!!!! It's true!!!!!!!

Anyways, we finally managed to arrange all our schedules so that we could have one day to ourselves doing all the stupid things that we usually do, haha! Went to have food at our old school (we're just weird, don't bother asking why) before heading to the movies. The movie wasn't that great, but it had its moments that we all loved! The sarcasm! I haven't laughed out loud while watching a movie in a long, long time. Just remembering the lines makes me wanna laugh out loud now!

We decided to go try a new eatery after the movie.. and honestly, it was a huge mistake. The food was alright, not that bad, but the service! My god!!! TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!!!! Can't be bothered to elaborate, L has done a good job on that already. Jeez.. We're never going back. Even if the food tasted like heaven we wouldn't go back. No food can ever compensate lousy service.

How can one enjoy good food when they are fuming inside???

Anyways, that little blemish to our outing was fast forgotten when we left. We had a really good time just goofing around and laughing away. It was good to be able to jut relax like that. I need more of that now. Things are too serious for my liking.

Thanks for the great outing girls! We've gotta do it again soon!!!

Muacks!!