Monday blues

My Monday blues start on Thursday...

I am really really dreading tomorrow... especially after a week of relaxation (well, more like 3 days) and the thought of the noise and hustle and bustle tomorrow...

I feel drained already..

Weekend! Come fast!!!!!!

I don't want to go to work tomorrow!!! Bleh...

After almost a year

Goodness gracious, it's been nearly a year since I last posted.

And I would have left this blog unupdated if it wasn't for kopiais who asked me if I had a blog. And I, rather sheepishly, fessed that I did. Only it was extremely dusty from the lack of updates.

Poor poor blog.

I will try to be more active. I promise!

Let's just hope that this new resolution actually lasts longer than 3 hours...

BUT I HAVE FAITH IN ME!

Tired

I am tired....

And I want a new phone... and a camera... and a LCD tv... and a whole truck filled with books and manga I want to read... and a ticket to Seoul...

I can hear H and P sighing as they shake their heads, thinking... "She's incorrigible..."

-_-"'

Conversation of the month

We had a girls night out last night, our weekly ritual as a means of relieving stress from our daily lives and just be the sixteen year olds we are inside. And I now show proof of that statement... Deep down inside, we're still the kids we were in high school!!

Location: Local eatery, discussing dragonfruit juice.

Me: I don't like dragonfruit juice. It tastes like banana skin.
K: It does not.
Me: Yes, it does. It even smells like banana skin.
K: *sniffs* I've never smelt banana skin before.
Me: *laughs* I used to when I was a kid.
K: Maybe we should make the skin into fritters.
Me: Don't. Banana skin tastes bad.
K: I've never eaten banana skin before.
Me: Okay, then you can have the skin and make it into fritters. I'll eat the banana instead. Ok?
L: Why are we even having this conversation at this age?!?

For all of us when we're feeling down and depressed

Cassan Said Amer tells the story of a lecturer who began a seminar by holding up a twenty-dollar bill and asking,‘Who would like this twenty-dollar bill?’

Several hands went up, but the lecturer said,‘Before I give it to you, I have to do something.’

He screwed it up into a ball and said,‘Who still wants this bill?’

The hands went up again.‘And what if I do this to it?’

He threw the crumpled bill at the wall, dropped it on the floor, insulted it, trampled on it, and once more showed them the bill – now all creased and dirty.

He repeated the question, and the hands stayed up.

‘Never forget this scene,’ he said.‘It doesn’t matter what I do to this money. It is still a twenty dollar-bill.So often in our lives, we are crumpled, trampled, ill-treated, insulted,And yet, despite all that, we are still worth the same.’

- from Paulo Coelho’s “Like A Flowing River”

Gloomy days

I think the weather is getting to me. The immense heat that radiates from the unforgiving sun, bent in its mission to ROAST all of us and the dark skies that makes it seem like it's about to rain, but it won't because it's not rain clouds that loom above us. It's the polluted, smoky air that is the result of the doings by senseless, selfish humans.

Sigh...

It's affecting me, I know. H says that I've been irritated the whole week, when my usual disposition is one of smiles and cheers. And I know that there has been a mood change for me this week. I can't be bothered to smile much, and am mostly quiet and broody.

Gah.

But... I think that there are other factors as well. A.K. A the gits that surround me. The evil ones that I spoke of earlier. EEwwww...

And honestly speaking, this week has brought one piece of bad news after another. It's been a long tiring week.

I can't wait for the weekend..

I wish...

... I knew how to get rid of the evil people around me. Not necessarily murderous, demented people, but basically people who are rude, unable to comprehend that we need to work together in a HARMONIOUS environment, and basically, people who are so darned selfish that in their little bubble all they see is 'Me! Me! Me!!!'.

Gosh, they irritate me....

I know I'm not the most perfect person in the world, but I do know what give and take is. I know compromise. And I know how to read a situation. If someone is annoyed, I DON'T go bug them. Is it so difficult to just mind your own business sometimes?

Gah.

I wish I had an amulet that would ward off these people. The crystals that L and I bought don't seem to be working very well.

In fact I think they have a counter effect. Rather than keeping these weirdo's at bay, I think it's actually attracting them to me like a magnet...

Cheap things NEVER work. It's about time I learnt that.

But the cheapo in me always turns a deaf ear and a blind eye!!!

Sigh...

Why does it feel like I am fighting a losing battle?